A new day

Yesterday was a really great day, I'm still trying to process it all but God taught me a lot of things. In missionary life class we had two FI missionaries come in and speak. Eric and Casey from the Phillipines. They are so passionate about God and his glory it was exciting. But I think that the most unusual and beautiful thing was how honest they were about things. It was refreshing, I think that that is one of the greatest needs in christians today is just plain honesty. We always want to look good in front of people and make a good impression. But in reality people who are just genuinely real and honest make such a better impression. So that's something that God has been working in me.

But one of the main things that they talked about was just being comfortable in who God created you to be. Now that's definitely not being comfortable in where you are at with God and the world and not stepping out of your comfort zone. There is a huge difference. When these guys used to live in Pensacola, Eric the husband used to get up and preach anywhere and his wife had such a burden for the lost that sometimes she even stopped and picked up prostitutes and gave them a ride and talked to them about God with her kids in the back. But he was saying how if we get caught up in what the people around us are doing that we don't have then we will become so frustrated and in despair. God is leading each of us down different paths and we each have different giftings and unique callings. He doesn't fast like some of the other guys on his team do and for awhile he was wondering if he just wasn't a good christian but God affirmed that he was also on the right course.

I guess for me the reason that that message was so powerful is because here are FIRE there are so many more people that have way more passion for God than I do. Maybe I just don't express it in the same way but there is a boldness and a faith here that I really want. And being a naturally competitive person I always want to excel and outdo other people. But God has been teaching me that it's not about striving so much of this life is resting and abiding in God and following his will. If it's not something huge it's all right because God knows what is best. And if it is something huge that's ok too because God can lead me through whatever he has for me and he knows me better than I know myself.

What is my calling? Well in the summer of before high school I spent a week at my grandparents farm and it was great time but there wasn't really much tv or music to distract me so I thought a lot. One day we were driving in to Lipton a nearby town and I distinctly remember just dreaming about my future and what I would do and I really felt God calling me to Egypt, perhaps to start a farm there. Since then he has revealed more and I think he wants me to run a discipleship school there with my wife and either train North Americans for one of the biggest harvest fields in the world and toughest to reach: the Muslim world. Or else train the native Egyptian believers to change their nation for Christ. Or it might be a bit of both. Either way if anyone knows me this seems way to big to be me. There is no way that I could pull it all off apart from God. But as I read these missionary biographies and my bible I am more and more convinced that if God could lead and provide for those people then he can lead and guide me. He is the same God!!

What do you guys think? What is God calling you to?