all who are thirsty

There's a prayer night at my house tommorow night, for those who actually know me you are invited at 7:30. I need some time with friends and God.

This last week I worked 66 hours at a call center, one night as I went to sleep I could still "hear" people talking to me with Newfoundlandian accents asking when their order will be coming in. It's a huge blessing of a job though, they give me up to 72 hours a week and a good wage. I could never work there for a career though, it just feels so meaningless. Helping people feed their materialism, and hunger for more possesions. It's a bit better at Christmas where people are actually thinking of others, but it's a weird sort of "people thinking of others" where people get in fights over presents and swear on the phone when they don't get what they want. I guess selfishness corrodes the heart to the place where that which is beautiful becomes dross.

I did learn a few good spiritual lessons this week though

Just Ask
It's amazing what is available to a person if they just ask about it, or in a restaurant if they complain about it. At the place where I work people can get all sorts of things if they just ask for the right thing. God is kind of like that it's his "job" so to speak, or "nature" would be a better word. His nature is generosity, just look at the cross the greatest gift to mankind ever. Then look at our nature on any other birthday we give the birthday boy the gifts but on Jesus' we just give each other gifts and even try to forget that the whole reason we're celebrating is Jesus' birthday. Not that there's anything God needs that we could give him, except maybe obediance and childlike devotion. Speaking of childlike devotion it's interesting how kid's let themselves get distracted with cool things. I think we should be like that with God, instead of so focused in one area just notice something that we can be thankful or ask God for, which will remind of us something else. "So it is with those born of the spirit, they are like the wind. No-one knows where it comes from or where it is going". And as such I don't really know where I was going with that thought. But yeah, if you don't know if something's available (from God) just ask.

Looking Forward to something better
Man, today I was looking so forward to this weekend that any tiredness, or irritants seemed meaningless in comparison because I knew there was only 1 day left this week. This week was also good because I came to the end of my rope a lot with frustration and other things and I could only turn to God. He humbled me a fair amount but I still need a whole lot more. I am fascinated by the concept of complete humility and meekness, and also total boldness (Psalm 34) says "The righteous are as bold as a lion" or a psalm near there. We need to make nothing of ourselves and yet be so confident in who we are in God that nothing will faze us or move us. How many times have I sang "I will not be shaken" only to be shaken by circumstance or emotion? Also what does this verse mean "He who has suffered in his body is done with sin?" 1 Peter 4:1 that sounds like a really sweet deal. Let me know if you guys know the answer. God bless everyone!

p.s. This guy is amazing